Rocking in a corner

It's true. I am moments away from being found in a corner rocking and humming in a chant like way. I am a neat freak and perfectionist which golden for a domestic goddess, but not so much for a mom to an 11 month old and a dog. The kid is not too much of an issue. I asked for her to be in my life and I love having her, so there is no choice when it comes to her happiness vs my need to clean she wins always. I make deals with myself, when she's awake she has the run of the house, when she goes down to sleep...I tidy up.

It is the dog....That hairy bitch is dropping fur like mad. I understand dogs shed, but this is unreal. I have never seen anything like it.

I was nutty about it when I was preggers....no hair, no hair must vacuum, must vacuum. I vacuumed about 2-3 times a day between the dog and the 2 cats I was going nuts. I have since rid my home of the cats and their fur, but the dog remains.

I keep the dog as it is not an all round situation, but merely 3 weeks twice a year. (lol)
Even so, I want to hurt my self especially now that baby girl is crawling and cruising around collecting it. I turn around for a second and she has found a ball of fur that she's trying to ingest. It is just everywhere and is hands down one of my biggest "pet" peeves. It's in my bed, on my clothing, all over baby girl and her stuff, in my kitchen...MY KITCHEN...please see "run get your panties" post, hair of any type does not belong in my kitchen. I swear to God I feel like I am going to cough a hair ball.

To all my family reading this, I assure you that the kitchen is cleaned every time I prepare food. I can just see my moms face now, "and she's having us over for a birthday party, good God I hope no one finds dog hair in the food". Put a Jewish swing on it, she pretends she part time Jewish when she appalled. The dog will not be here for the party, nor will her fur.

I have been pleading to hubby to shave the dog. He just laughs. In fact he thinks the whole situation is a riot. Is it wrong to shave a lab?

I cannot keep vacuuming twice a day. I have so much more to do. My sanity is truly being tested.

Welcome to my Days....

Hubby Tries to help and offered to brush the dog outside yesterday to ease my pain...not so much, as this is what I opened my door to this morning.
















Yep that is a whack of fur there on my front step and a little more on the lawn at the bottom of my steps, along with a dirty fag. Honestly he is killing me slowly.















My front hall with tuffs of fur sticking along the closet doors and my kitchen floor...BARF!
















And finally how my carpet looks now..................and how it will look in 2 hours from now.

Truly hell on Earth.

The tax man can kiss my ass!

I fucking hate tax season. Every fucking year I owe. I use to get a couple hundred back when I was in high school and working a part time job, but it would seem those days are gone. The last time I got money back was in 1992. 1992, does this seem right to anyone.

I thought for sure I would get a refund this year seeing that I am on a non topped up mat leave and living in the red and pretty much no joke at the poverty line since April. Nope, I owe over a hundred bucks. I have friends that bring home a few thousand a tax time, what the fuck am I doing wrong.

When I am working full time I make 50K a year, I make monthly RRSP contributions which is matched by my employer, I have taxes deducted from my pay bi-weekly and union dues bi-weekly, and yet some how I owe. Might I also add that I do not qualify for GST either and nor did I qualify this year being on a mat leave. I am convinced that it is my husband and his stupid in the box tax software in combination with the fact that I got married and had a kid. I love my baby, but for everyone that said, "wait until your tax refund"...well they were full of shit or cheating on their taxes.

Now my husband gets money back he gets to claim baby girl (believe I squeezed that almost 10lb baby from my pelvis), but he made more. Even so he is still only getting several hundred (how the fuck are people getting a few thousand. Please if you have the answers I am listening), but it's money back, of course minus the money I owe, as I cannot afford to pay it.

I am grateful of this and our money is shared, but I am just pissed and honestly jealous of those couples who are able to bring home a refund of several hundred or couple of thousand each. Do you know what I could do with that money. Not to mention that I work and I work hard. I commute an hour each way on the damn QEW, to already bring home a fraction of what I agreed to be paid and then not even be able to have a refund to contribute back into my family. I might as well be June f'n Cleaver.

Friends- "oh what a nice deck"
Me- oh thanks it new...we were able to purchase it thanks to Ward's tax refund. He's my working man. (insert country club laugh)

Don't get me wrong. I would love to be a stay at home wife/mom. I am actually begging for this position, but I can't because we cannot afford it by any means. So if I have to work and then I should see something for it too.


Whatever, just feeling sorry for myself. I just thought that this year I would actually be able to get ahead, maybe do something wild and crazy with my refund like paint my builder primer walls of 3 years, but not in the cards. I was banking on so much more now that we have baby girl and I disappointed. I feel like Clark Griswald, when he didn't get his Christmas bonus, but instead a jelly of the month club gift, after he had put a down payment on the pool. Glad I did not buy that pool eh.

To all of you how are getting money back. Enjoy it...